I was told I was appointed as an Elder but I refused it because I was just waking up. Couldn't/didn't want the bs involved. Now I am trying to slowly fade as a MS. Not as easy as it seems. I actually have a couple of "real" elders in my congregation and when you say you are missing because of sickness or something, they really try to help. I think I am going down the anxiety route again. Worked once before, and the brothers aren't trained to deal with it.
Hey DW, I can imagine your situation is a real pain. Your awake and some men really care, but you can’t really say anything or all hell will break lose. It’s like you’re caught in a spider’s web, with several ropes attached to you. You just can’t cut one and be Free, because the moment you try to get loose, they feel the movement on the strings, and they come running to make sure you’re not going anywhere. Do what you need to do!